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bad feeling coming again..

once in a while i been thinking it.......

over and over again.....

it this the right way.....

devil in my heart pushing me towards it ....

there are too many circumstances....

when times went long it is more harder for me to get rid of it...

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suka duka selama 3 bulan telah pun berlalu....

tiba masanya untuk ku pilih laluan ku...

keinginan masing2x telah pun tercapai..

apa lagi ku dan mu berharap.

bagiku senang melepas tapi pahit menderita....

bagimu ku tidak mengetahui...

adakah seperti katamu selalu engkau enggan melepaskan..

adakah ia kata ikhlas dari hatimu....

denganmu ku hanya dapat kemesraan dan tempat bermanja..

di mana keselamatan dan masa depan mu dan ku...

adakah ia cerah di hadapan atau gelap ketinggalan....

kegembiraan ini hanya untuk sementara....

kerana ku percaya dunia ini tiada yang sempurna...

apatah lagi tiada kerestuan dari orang tua...

di mana laluan yang harus ku pilih..........

ku tak berani menghadapinya...

sekali kala ingin ku melepaskan segalanya..

daripada menyeksa hidupku begini...

siapakah dirimu tidak ku begitu tahu..

tidakku memahami latar belakang mu..

siapakah kau sebenar ??

apakah yang kau buat tanpa pengetahuan ku..

apakah yang tersirat dalam dirimu...

bilakah dapat ku mengetahuinya...

akankah kau memberitahui ku..

 

on 28th sept ....

bad day...

staring out after rain...

ben lai shi 1 ge hen kuai le de yi tian......

i been looking for an answer...

na ge ta an zai na li le ???

where is the way out ???

wo ying gai zen me zuao.....

lead me to the rite way .....

finally................

 

 

on 29th august......

everything getting down....

everythg like getting into wrong ways...

suddenly feel so bad....

totally lost ...

grounded....

exam coming soon...

havent started revision...

too many thg come into my mind..

finally i make up my mind....

not too think bout it..

just let it go by time..

when the time is right..

just lay out all the cards....

 

 

without any expectation..... 

on the 10th August...

i went to a special place........

with my god brother n 2 of his fren...

on that day i meet some1..

 some1 who special for me........

on 15th Aug 07 we started...

on 24th Aug 07 we begin....

and til now we on going....

and duno tis wil last how long....

i alwez remind myself bout it....

everythg done is done......

anythg happen with no regret.....

nobody will know this will last how long..

just pray to god ....

everythg will go on fine....

 

today in 12 july 07.. during MIS lecture in DKABC .... like usual we attend class  from 2pm - 4pm... normally i wil sit 2 person in a row.. but today my row tat i sit is completely full... we have kelvin ,me , edward, bowleng, wan chien , ellysia n lastly angel......v all sit in a row... 

then our lesson started........

 * 1st event .. tat XX kelvin saw a guy with yellow color shirt.. quite plump.. so kelvin wana start his job..acting jobs... he start talking bout tat guy... talking many nonsense..say wana intro to me la n tis n tat.. reli beh tahan him... so v all laugh la.. like usually .. he act like clown... v laugh happily..

 * 2nd event..... den v have 10minutes break.. so every1 just watching around here n there.. then suddenly sze nee at the bak say " HAR '' HOW COME TAT GIRL LOOK ALIKE WAN CHIEN DE''' den v all started to focus to the girl which nee hv mention.. then v laugh again....every1 hv their own comment bout girl.. some say reli look alike le.. ask wan chien izzit her lost sister...haha.. reli laugh crazily.. somemore the best clown actor KELVIN  act like so chai.... doin some stupid action....hahahaha....

 * 3rd event....... evey1 aledi calm down ... lesson continue....i feel bored.. so i took KELVIN phone to hv a look.. then he click on somethg to his phone.. then he pass his phone to me n he click OK.... in a silent n every student concentrate to our MR OOi explaination... some annoying sound ring...the ring sound like "AR AR" "WO HA YAU" N 'AR' AR.... den i got stone for a few second .. tat stupid Kelvin pass his phone to me.. n the sound like in "porn" movie get to rang.. i totally lost .. duno wat happen...... den i pass back the phone to kelvin.. every1 eyes in the lecture hall are focusing on us.. reli "memalukan"... v all paiseh till every1 laugh til wan die.. no one of us dare to look to the others side.. every1 just cant keep their face up.... reli memalukan memalukan.. "laugh til face bcome yellow" duno where to put our face... haiz haiz.. reli tulan tat kelvin.. how dare he "ham hoi" me....

luckily our lecturer din scolded us..  

**** first time in my life get so embarass..... but it reli fun ..... hahahhaa.. this is the teenager life.. get excited everyday.. trying some brand new thg..........hahahahaa.......... reli unforgetful...........thx for ur mistery gift Mr kelvin...............