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6月29日 ~~~suddenly~~~~~ thanks for the memories~~~aledi stick in my memories for a long time.... is reli sweet during the moment of 6 hours..a half year ago... but is bitter thinkin of it now.... happening on the midnite of the day on the month of january... i just finis having a sport activities with my hsemate n roomate.. i m reli blur during tat time .. hardly to make a decision... everyone around me keep on advising me not to try this but i do try it.... the opponents side hv the more attractiveness to me.. "if u Lxxx somebody could we be this strong" i wil find a way to win my heart n mind to make this thg happen... during that time is aledi 3am ..just finis game n v all goin to mamak n yum cha there....suddenly a msg come in my phone..... i read it n feel "luan" again....luan luan luan.. duno wether is rite to replying the msg or not ?? once reply means i hv the heart to try it ... lastly i did.. n the thgs went wrong...after finis eating v all went home.. once reach home i take a hot bath.. feeling wan sleep ady...all my hsemate soul out their tired feeling after hv the sport activities.. some say there pain n here pain..alamak.. doin some small exercise also here ache there ache.. like lou ah ma.. haha..in a silent.. once again a msg come in.. i feel somethg wrong there.. just like wat i hv prepare to hv know... it happens.... the next day.. i reli regret what i done .. i reli wana cry out ..does it hurt?? it reli ruins my heart.... but i told myself not to drop even a single tears for that..i deserve it.. so i din.... i hv promise myself n never never again do that again.. no ever in my life.. ppl surrounding me love me a lot n why must i betray them n make them so dissapointed ... no point... a half again thking it bak just like a silly thgs... nothg big deals.. coz i stil love myself very much n so do ppl surrounding me n who cares me a lot.. but sometimes its reflects again in my mind.. times go on and on it become more blur ,blur n blur .....til i hope it wil not have a single shadow in my life..yahoo .. i keep on my promise.. i do eliminate 70% this dark shadow..25% more i wil keep it to revXXXXX.... 5% is stil LoXX..... sincerly heart.. @@@ wat a life is @@2(^0^) ..... mornin.. wat i gonna to do today... feel bored... lying on bed... dun wan wake up...thking of wat to do.. finally i got it.. the same thg .. dreaming the whole day n on9... during on9 i find somethg interesting... reli reli interesting.... u know wat ?? i oso dun no wat... reli "So" .. wat is on my mind now is wana just take a deep breath n fart it out .... hopefully everyone get fainted n no ppl surrounding me.. i can do wat ever i wan ...included which thg tat can be out of limit n control.. sometimes life is very "mau ton"... wana to this but afraid that .. wan try this but cant do that.. so how??? just sit there n dream..... hehe..
now is aledi noon...feeling wan sleep again... but cant.. coz my big stomach singing again...just can do is feed is "bao bao"... once again come in my mind.. wat to eat today??? life got many thg can be do but cant do it in a same times.. if i given the chance sure i would try the thgs that not everyone wil willing to do that ...
oppss.. finally reach the sleep times.. ZZZZZZZZ ......wat a waste day......... |
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